I understand to a degree. I used to love posting at this one forum, but yet I was judged by everyone. I stayed around cause I thought I had something to prove and to show the members that I'm not just this depression person. In the end I stopped going to it cause it ate me up and I felt angry. I felt like I always had to say something.

Deep down I noticed it was simply me being upset cause I was rejected by others and it fueled my anger. I hope things are getting better for you.