I know where you're coming from - I've been suffering from depression/anxiety for several years now, but never thought to bring it to a doctor. Last year the problem intensified so much that I knew I had to get professional help. But I didn't because I was so afraid. However, a year later the problem is only getting worse and is becoming somewhat debilitating, as well as frightening and too overwhelming for me to deal with anymore. I forced myself to call mental health services at my college this weekend, and I'm going to an appointment on wednesday. Honestly, I wish I had gotten help before things got so bad, and I urge you to do so, but I understand how tough it can be to go see a doctor about these things.