I'm going to see a counselor for the first time this week too. I wouldn't have done it if my boyfriend hadn't promised to go with me at least this one time. I am still afraid as hell, just because I have a real hard time communicating about the suffering I've gone through and go through, and talking to a stranger about it seems terrifying. But I know somebody who knows what's going on with me will be there too, which I'm grateful for. You are doing the right thing. Good luck.