My father looked after me
As a baby sometimes
While my mum worked.
He would tell embarrassing stories
The same ones all the time.
I believe him when
He said my mum
Went out partying
While he watched me.
Because of the stories
Of nappy changing.
I think it's one of the only
Truths he ever told.
My mum still runs
Away from responsibility
And acts too young
For her age to this day.
But my father
Did play petty mind games.
So I can fully imagine
That he was nasty
To my mum.
My granny let it slip
That he had an inferiority
Complex because he would
Use snide comments
And he was very
Passive aggressive.
I found myself being
Passive aggressive with
A girl who picked on me
In the past. How
Would they know
How much it hurt
At the time.
I hated myself For it.
Sorry I know
You were just being
A teenager.
As much as I thought
I had done the best thing
And not let it get to me
It obviously had.
I went from getting upset,
To getting angry.
I couldn't tell my parents,
They were always in
The pub anyway.