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Originally Posted by montaru
Thank you for your responses. <3
I know her, she didn't go to her friend for advice. She just went, because she wanted to go out and have a good time. When I tell her that I feel really bad (which is really rare, because she always says that "people have it worse" or something like that), she doesn't understand it. She tells me then that I have to be strong, to pull myself together etc. She always asks me why I'm not happy, that I have everything what I need etc. Ehh.. There's so much more... Every time I tell her that I feel really bad, she's angry with me. One time, after her yelling at me, I was scared and I wanted to tell her that I already feel better just to make her yelling at me more. Shey says that I'm not trying to feel better... But how can I try to feel better?! I just feel that I wanna die most of the time. I'm in therapy for almost 4 months, sometimes it's better, sometimes worse, it depends. I hope it will be good one day.
I am so sorry that you had to go through such a deep depression. It must have been so awful.  Did it happen long time ago? How are you today? |
I'm so sorry that your mum acts that way . Before I told my mum what I told her. I used to always look said and one time she screamed at me for being sad then she grabbed me and throw me around the room like a rag doll . I can relate . I'm sorry . Yes it was along time ago for me . I've suffered with depression most of my life unfortunately I am still depressed but not in the same way that I was at that age . I don't want to scare you . I didn't get the help I needed . I was scared to take the antidepressants . I tried to go to therapy , in the first one I didn't speak at all it was so uncomfortable , on the second time I turned up on the wrong week by mistake and the resecptionists both laughed hysterically at me that I couldn't bare to go back there . So I didn't get the help that I needed . I also have a mental health disorder as well as depression . So hopefully you will not suffer long term . You are doing the right things in terms of therapy