same old same old. I'm still confused or conflicted if I even have bipolar. There's no doubt in my mind that I suffer from depression, but I'm not sure if the high moods are just my personality and my body trying to overcome the depression or if it's an elevated mood. Because I don't know if I've experienced significant change in sleep, except when I was on both the AD and this med being used for ADHD.

Speaking of ADHD, I'm also restless because now that I've taken the neuropsych test, I still have to wait almost 2 months for the results. What the hell do I do in the meantime?? And what do I tell my pdoc at the appointment in between. Yes, I had suffered some of my worst depression, that the mood stabilizer is not enough, and that now I'm feeling a bit more "normal"?? I guess that's what I say. Oh, and that my focus is on and off. I should probably try to take note if that is cyclical too or just coincidence that the lack of focus I've noticed was happening when I wasn't depressed...maybe it was both.

I'm just blabbering because I don't know what's up and feeling very frustrated and ...talkative. I should probably talk out these things...