This has been the worst month of the year. I wasn't that bad earlier today, but now I'm so extremely sick again with nausea and severe headache. I managed through yesterday, but the days before we're hell with me having a bad mixed state at two international airports. The vacation was mostly horrible. It was supposed to be my husband's and my 20th anniversary celebration vacation. What a waste of money we didn't have! I feel so sorry for my husband! I was so scary crazy at the airports that he bawled (crying) on the airplane. Tomorrow is actually our anniversary day and I wish I could go to the hospital. I do see my psychiatrist tomorrow, but I can't imagine how I'll even begin to tell the hellish story of the last few weeks.