I’m feeling defeated today. Seriously. I was already depressed and now I learned that COBRA coverage will be about $2000 a month. That’s more than rent would be. My grandma was going to help me but there’s no way we can afford that. I don’t know what I’m going to do about insurance. I just want to forget about it and crawl in my bed but I can’t. When I applied for Obamacare it said I wasn’t eligible but I think that’s because I said I was going to do cobra back when I thought it was only $600. I’m so upset. I’m gonna have to call and I hate making phone calls. I don’t know what I’m going to do. I’m going to have to quit group on 5/31 and I’m not sure I’ll be able to see my therapist. I could pay out of pocket for her I guess. I don’t have to have the prescription coverage, my prescriptions aren’t that much, but I’d have to take my son off his inhaler. I’m not entirely sure if he needs it but if he does I’d rather he have it. Ugggghhhh everything is such a ****ing mess.

I don’t know why I’m depressed except that I’m PMSing as I’ve been saying but I’m not sure that’s the whole problem. But it must be. My group leader told me I should go exercise today but I could only manage to go to the store to buy new clothes for my son. Then I came home and slept. I should t have!!! I should be fighting harder!! ****. I don’t know why this is so difficult. **** depression.