The thing is I asked to be taken off my meds last year and we tapered, so it wasn't his choice to discontinue for no reason.

Okay so I went up to the receptionist and told her I had an appointment, and she said I did not. I took out my card and confirmed that it was the date and time that was on the card. I had the right date and time, but she had no scheduled appointment so either they lied about my appointment or cancelled it without telling me.
I believe my doctor told them to cancel it because he wants me to truly suffer without meds. He probably thinks he's giving me a lesson. He's angry at me. At my last appointment he told me if I start having any symptoms to go to the hospital instead of him. The group having nothing to do with his practice I go to explained to me that. He wants me to go to the hospital so he doesn't have to deal with me when I'm not at my best. That's my experience with every other practice I've gone to so why not this one.

I don't think I'm even capable of calling them back at this point and calmly explaining I need an appointment. I don't want to see him. I'm considering separating myself from the system. From this point on I have no psychiatrist, am on no meds, and am not going to seek for either. I totally understand I'm going to wind up in the hospital, jail, or dead, but I don't have any other options I will genuinely consider when every single psychiatrist is in a conspiracy against me.