MissCharlotte, et al

I give you all a lot of credit for your willingness to embrace this...inner child. You seem so much more aware of what is going on than I am. Based on everyone's responses your Ts consider this as a normal (healthy) part of the therapeutic process.

Honestly, at this point I am just a little freaked out by all this. I started therapy a whole person who is in a less than fulfilling marriage. Then I realize that I have two connected but clearly distinct... personalities...moods...faces...whatever the correct term for these...halves is. Now I might have this inner child that needs care and coddling. I seem to be subdividing instead of integrating, I'm not sure this is a good thing.

If this is something my T is attempting to facilitate, she isn't explaining it to me very well. It also certainly doesn't seem like my T is trying to lure this inner child out of hiding with kindness and concern. Last week felt like she biffed me in the head with my writings. A little tough love to wake me up maybe???

I cannot image bring a bear to therapy at this point. I can see it now, walking in with my little teddy, T asking, "What's that?", me replying, "Oh, this... my alternate personality wanted me to bring it, its my inner child." T responds with.."Oooo..K... shall we continue...what on your mind today?"

I don't know what to make of all this. Maybe therapy and all the introspection I'm doing outside of it is creating a dissociative disorder instead of helping me. I'm going to have to seriously think about what I'm doing and whether it is in fact healthy. Does anyone else ever question the risk:benefit ratio of therapy?