spikes, I'm going to be very truthful. I have absolutely no reason to mess with you.

It sounds like your pdoc's office is not well-organized. It sounds like the receptionist(s) are messing up appointments because of their disorganization. Here's my suggestion: When you have an appointment scheduled, call the day before to confirm the appointment. Be absolutely sure you are on the schedule at the time and on the date you believe you should be.

My next assertion: It sounds to me like medication would help to stabilize your thinking and emotional life. Being on medication is not a weakness, it's not about which is stronger - you or the medication. It's about being the healthiest and most stable you.

Best of luck to you, spikes