Oh, Soliaree, I'm so sorry you feel so bad right now.

Any way you can compartmentalize to only think about your T on the days you see him and weekends/times when no one else is around? I use to do that with my therapy; mine was on Fridays so I had the whole weekend to get things "organized" in my head so I could go to work on Monday without being quite as upset.

When you can't feel him, play games with that (since you will see him in a few days) and call him "Waldo" or something, treat him as a "pet" instead of quite a necessity.

He does have power since you want to see him but he wants to see you too, that's why he went to 2x a week. You want to feel better and he wants to help. Don't give him much more power than that; there are lots and lots of therapists. He is like a teacher, you had 15-20+ different teachers. It is only a few years of your long life, there have been important people before and there will be again.