Firstly, I would be creative even without bipolar disorder. And bipolar episodes don't make me significantly better than when I'm stable. Actually, overall they make me much worse. I know who the stable me is. I like her better than the manic me even if mania might have helped boost something in the past. It didn't just boost the positives, it boosted a lot of negatives. Comparing them, the negatives were more numerous for me and some things that used to seem positive from the mentally ill perspective now appear negative.

I would definitely love to have never had the negatives of bipolar disorder and I would be extremely happy if it disappeared forever, but that will likely not be the case.

The only reason I might opt to keep bipolar disorder is to keep certain significant things I have. For example, if I never had bipolar disorder would I have met my husband? Perhaps not. He's worth the pain to me.