Sometimes all therapy is, is just a push for more information to talk urself into calmer moments. To understand who is influence why switches are needed. It is impair to share what you can so it doesn't feel like it is holding up a moment that is needed to be calmer. At some point in therapy there is need to be equal some alters will pick up on those that aren't doing the work. Is it maybe that it doesn't want to make a big deal out of alcohol