Your not alone. I know so much how you feel. I constantly have my T on my mind. I just want to be with him. He just gives me the comfort I never had. I see him once a week. Nothing in between unless it's a crisis. I do feel he's with me all the time and I know he cares. I just keep going over in my head what he says. I do a lot of journaling, even at work. He has all the power and I am very attached to him. I told him how attached I was to him a few sessions ago and I am glad I did. I feel much better about it. I feel I am able to go much deeper now. I am also under a lot of stress and sometimes feel I am going to lose all control. If I make it to see him on Saturday, I feel like I made it home. I ran all the bases all week and now I am safe. On Monday it starts all over again I have to start running those bases again. That's when I have to come out of isolation and deal with unsafe people again.

Your T really cares about you and is working with you. Feel safe and comforted with that. We all need are T's and are dependent on them. That's part of the process. We have to go through the process to get to the other side.

Hugs to you.