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Originally Posted by rdgrad15
I tend to feel invisable a lot. I am not suicidal or anything but I do feel that if something happened to me, like a car accident or I just didn’t wake up in the morning after falling asleep, no one would notice or care. There has been times where I may not show up somewhere due to an appointment or I may leave a social event early, and I wouldn’t tell people since I felt like they would not care and the next time I saw them, they didn’t notice my absence. With other people they know, they are texting the person asking where they are or at least know if someone will not show up. With me, it never happens. That’s why I strongly feel that people just genuinely don’t care about me that much. I feel like I am just not well liked by others, at least not enough for people to notice me or care. Just an observation I have made. I wish I was cared for but I feel like I really am not that much in all honesty.
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I am very fermiluar with this feeling, and when I try to fit in, I feel like I am intruding in things, I haven't been invited into. I know people would care about me if I wasn't around for awhile, but I feel it would be like just in passing. Like ( after several weeks someone would say things like have you seen ........... and the reply would be like I seen her awhile ago, she is doing fine. (Not). My openions never count, my input to fix things is always wrong, or even things like, you don't even know what was being talked about. IDK it may just be me. After all I have the habit of trying to keep the peace, so maybe the people I am around want conflict, drama, and stress?
Also I just might be having a bad day today, but I do feel like this very often, even in my own home.