Grrrrr. I’m so tired of having to muzzle myself and to “cope” with all the crap in life without medication. I keep being reminded of this. I won’t bore people with the details. I know I “should” just stuff it up, shut up and freakin “Cope” as we are expected to do in this forest.

I hope I don’t turn into a “hateful” person. Despite those jerks who loved to label me (nobody here) I’m much “stronger” and more resiliant than those who feel the need to harm others are. Meaning the step maternal unit especially. I wish I could just “move on”

But I’m determined to never become the monster that she is

I’d rather die.

Maybe I’ve been “punished” long enough?