Thnx u 4 the comments guys I went to see another therapist yesterday in order to get some advice about what my next step should be. And she basically said the our therapy is stuck and I should tell her everything thing I feel in the most honest way possible. That we need to take a few meetings and just to discuss if it's possible for us to continue the therapy and if she can handle it. She also told that because this issue is so powerful in my head Im projecting it towards her and I could be wrong abut it. And it's very important for her to make the boundaries very conclusive! Not to say for example: "nothing is not going to happen between us" to say nothing is not going to happen between us cause I'm not attracted to u" and yes it might heart but it's better then living in some sick fantasy.....regarding your questions she never seemed to be emberessed when I talk to her about that, nit even when I mentioned that her husband is ugly and I find understand how can she touch him (and not me) also this trancferense it's apperently a way to sabotage the therapy...so I guess I have no choice. .I'll talk to her next week and hopefully there will be some progress cause it's really absourd that I need to go to another therapist in order to talk about mine....thank you again for the support! !!