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Originally Posted by *Laurie*
Meds have seriously affected my cognitive skills, my memory, and my intelligence.
Concentrating issues can be related to BD, but some of us with BD are excellent at multi-tasking. I didn't learn that until recently. I've always wondered how it is that I'm so good at multi-tasking and most others can't multi-task. I was always annoyed with those people, especially when I was working in a cafe. Now I'm realizing that I can get my mental energy to such an elevated level that I can quite easily do 3 things at once and do each one well. A benefit of BD, I guess.
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As I’m usually cruising along on a hypomanic Clipper Ship sailing from one continent to another, I, too, multi-task. I can read and listen to music. I can wash dishes as I’m cooking. I’m more apt to multi-task when hypomanic and high/free from pain using medical cannabis. The particular strains of cannabis that I use can vary but it helps.
I’ve been BP since birth, probably, but at the height of my intellectual stamina, I was still forgetting words and having my little blackout spells. I feel very stupid today — I only know anniversaries — I need to stop for 20-30 minutes, sometimes, to recall a name.
Yeah, we hesitate to say that our disorders have side-benefits. It’s like Quasimodo celebrating his wayward eye and lovely hunchback. It’s taboo — it’s what we never tell (never tell).
Okay, my memory is shot. Am I less intelligent now than thirty-years-ago? Yes, absolutely. I no longer parlay with the in crowd and I no longer use, or even have, my old vocabulary.
I am dumb and I lack passion. Passion was the last thing they took from me.
Bravo for my disorders if they allow me to rig my delusions and bugger them all if this — this hermit and recluse — is set to star in my swan song.