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Old May 23, 2018, 05:55 AM
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Originally Posted by *Laurie* View Post
Meds have seriously affected my cognitive skills, my memory, and my intelligence.


Concentrating issues can be related to BD, but some of us with BD are excellent at multi-tasking. I didn't learn that until recently. I've always wondered how it is that I'm so good at multi-tasking and most others can't multi-task. I was always annoyed with those people, especially when I was working in a cafe. Now I'm realizing that I can get my mental energy to such an elevated level that I can quite easily do 3 things at once and do each one well. A benefit of BD, I guess.
As I’m usually cruising along on a hypomanic Clipper Ship sailing from one continent to another, I, too, multi-task. I can read and listen to music. I can wash dishes as I’m cooking. I’m more apt to multi-task when hypomanic and high/free from pain using medical cannabis. The particular strains of cannabis that I use can vary but it helps.

I’ve been BP since birth, probably, but at the height of my intellectual stamina, I was still forgetting words and having my little blackout spells. I feel very stupid today — I only know anniversaries — I need to stop for 20-30 minutes, sometimes, to recall a name.

Yeah, we hesitate to say that our disorders have side-benefits. It’s like Quasimodo celebrating his wayward eye and lovely hunchback. It’s taboo — it’s what we never tell (never tell).

Okay, my memory is shot. Am I less intelligent now than thirty-years-ago? Yes, absolutely. I no longer parlay with the in crowd and I no longer use, or even have, my old vocabulary.

I am dumb and I lack passion. Passion was the last thing they took from me.

Bravo for my disorders if they allow me to rig my delusions and bugger them all if this — this hermit and recluse — is set to star in my swan song.
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