Hi ltlvt,

First I need you to know that I really do hope you get better. Losing loved ones is really a hard feeling to deal with. I admire your strength in sustaining yourself... You have my prayers.

But, on the other hand, I feel I need to sound a little hard on you. Can't you just be a man, and let go of it... SHE IS NOT ALL IN YOUR LIFE...... there are many fine things in life, fine or medium women out there.... why do you keep on pending on this woman, I know she was (and she still is) important to you, but now she's gone, she made a decision with her life, she is making new changes (regardless good or bad, nobody can predict the future, right?). So, can't you just accept it, and do the same thing, move on with your life, man!!! SHE IS NOT YOUR DESTINY. Only you can decide how to live your life... Just move your eyes on something else, because you are literally being blind to other things and people. I strongly do not agree with you that there is no fine women want to be with you... If I were a man, instead of waiting for them draw favors upon me, I would work my butt off to make myself a finer man. You don't wait for them, you attract them...

I'm so very sorry if I make you feel bad by saying all these, and I'm sure nowheretorun didn't mean to hurt you either. I hope you do understand how others feel on the forum, that we see you as a member of this family suffering so much... As much as it's painful to you, it's the same with us... I really hope you stand yourself tall and strong, do something to turn your life around. I'm very confident about your ability, come here again when you need more strength, ok?

As a woman, I can tell you we, women, appreciate and adore much more when a man behaves as a MAN. We believe in men's strength. Tenderness and softness is also appreciated, but not in a stage as you are at... I might be wrong on this. Anyone can stand out and support me??

Besides, being depressive is not your fault, you didn't ask for it, no one on this forum did. What happened happened. There is nothing you can do to change, neither can she. Look into the light of your future... Because you do have enough power right at your hand RIGHT NOW to change, to do anything as you pleased... So does her... and she's already begun to use it, what about you?

Again, please do not feel offended, I just wanted to help, I've been reading your posts and feeling somehow nice words haven't had any effect on you... please take care, ok?... looking forward the day of your enlightment.

Sending the warmest hugs to you... ((((((((((Itlredvett)))))))))))

Best,
Toni

[i] What our mind can conceive and believe, it will achieve.