It was a session where I wasn't necessarily struggling as much as usual. I told T that this kind of session scares me because what if I end up feeling painful emotions when I get home. T talked about something that I should know but didn't. I told him I was stupid, and he said no, just not informed because it doesn't interest you. He asked if I could change our session from Wednesday next week to Tuesday, so we did. I told T how profound it was when he told me it was okay to feel the way I feel, it was okay to be me. And I got home and used this thought when talking with my H about things. I told him that this one thing made me angry and he didn't want to talk about it. I told him that's how I feel, I am not choosing to feel this way. But I wanted my opinion to matter, I wanted H to hear me and take my view into consideration when we decide what to do about the issue. And H and I put forth both of our ideas/feelings/etc., and we made a plan of action to address the problem. And we decided that we need to consider both of our emotions/feelings to resolve things in the future. It sounds like common sense, but it hasn't been thus far, but I am glad H and I have found a solution as to how to tackle problems. So it was a low-key productive session.
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