I'm not gonna lie, it hurts. I know, I know I'm no good, let alone good enough for her son. In truth, I don't think she ever liked me (unless I was giving her free **** to get high on), but I think she tolerated me for him. And now, I walk in the door to pick up something and inside thirty seconds she wants me to leave. I ****ed up and tried to make a joke, you know, like I used to and she'd laugh. She didn't laugh, just stepped away and gave me a look that said, "**** off." While I'm in the bathroom, I heard her tell my fiance, "She needs to leave. I don't want her around here." Just to think, I used to think she was part of my family. Ha, I guess she really fits the profile now with hating me and all.

Why the **** am I still living? I'm really, honestly and with no questions asked: Worthless. She knows it. Maybe my fiance should listen to her. He deserves better. Not this pathetic, psychotic bum that can't even work. I'm not good enough and never will be. And yeah it hurts, but it only hurts because I know she's right. I'm sorry I even ****ing exist.