I wonder if this feeling of suffering and kind of desperation is leading you to hope for a 'cure' from therapy which sadly might not exist in reality?

I mean, there are all kinds of things in my life which are very painful and whichever I'm sure my T would solve for me if he could, but the reality is that they are not really in his remit and also he's only a human being and he can't solve everything that happens or has happened or will happen in my life.

Perhaps it would help to write down some notes and then have a conversation with your T about exactly what you are hoping for as an outcome of therapy, and ask T to explain in a concrete way whether or not they think they can help you to achieve that outcome, which therapeutic approach they think will help, and what the steps will be? I find it good generally to have this kind of conversation and it help some one to know that something useful is happening and that progress is happening overall, even though it doesn't always feel like that each and every session.