Well... I think we all have multiple aspects to our personalities. Due to some unfortunate experiences you've had recently in your young life, it sounds like yours have coalesced, so to speak, into two seemingly opposite components. (That's not to say they will stay that way. But that's the way it perhaps feels to you at present.)

The Buddhist meditation teacher, Chogyam Trungpa, used to say: "Chaos should be regarded as extremely good news!" He understood that it is in the midst of upheaval that we have our greatest opportunity to grow. If you see a therapist at the present time, I think this would all be great subject matter for thorough & intensive discussion & introspection. By looking deeply into these two dimensions of your personality, you may find your way to a whole new wiser & more mature you that will transcend both of the "yous" you're struggling with at the moment. And, if by some chance, you're not seeing a therapist at the present time... perhaps the time is neigh? (Some of your current so-called "friends" may be suggesting you need therapy as a way of putting you down. But, in reality, seeing a therapist as a way of growing as a person could be a very positive step forward.)

Oh... & as far as all of those other people go, any of them who seem to just want to pull you one direction or another, my recommendation would be to get rid of them! If that means changing the way you handle yourself on social media then so be it. Maintain relationships only with people who you feel are genuinely interested in seeing you grow as person. Remember that old truism: it's hard to fly with eagles when you're up to your behind in alligators! I wish you well...