I had thought about going every other week this summer to see how I did. But I want to go back to weekly in the Fall. The thing is, I don't know if I am doing this because I might feel ready or if I am doing this so you don't get sick of me and kick me out. Or am I just doing this to prove to you that I am working diligently in therapy. (in contrast to what the post termination phone call person stated to me). I don't know how to decide something like this that has possible terrifying repercussions. I am afraid to talk to you even about contemplating it because just me thinking about doing this is making me more clingy, it seems. I am so undecided and suspect I will continue to be this way for the foreseeable future.