I think I had the worst shock five weeks ago when I received a copy of the assessors report and saw that she didn't score me enough points to be awarded.I was so upset back then,but at least I was ready to be let down when the final decision came through.I had adjusted by then to the news I had just received.I still have to manage on a lot less and won't be able to eat as much as I do now.I have to cut my shopping budget in half.Bills will get paid but there will be very little for transport and spending money to get through until next pay day.Horrific nightmare,I will have to go without and stay at home more....I will concentrate on watching DVDs,writing and art and reading my books,gardening,housework.I have to get through this with a positive attitude or else I will be physically ill which will cause mental decline and possibly psychosis.I want to avoid that happening.I have been without money before and it was hard I got seriously ill.Please God it doesn't get that bad again.