September,
I may very well need your help in the future when I lose my mom. I know it will be hard and I know I will go thru a stage of knowing it's over and the chance that it could be better is over. That will be hard to swallow. I do so wish it was different. I see other people with thier moms and I think, "why can't I have that?" but I know I never will. Acceptance. It's what I have to do now and what I will need to do then.
Did you ask me somewhere how old I was or did I dream it?
Well, I'm 34, so now you know either way.
Heidu

Every path to a new understanding begins in confusion- Mason Cooley