I think ruh roh gave you excellent advice. I'm sorry you had to witness your mother in that condition when you were 5. What a traumatic incident for a child.

I hope that discussing your feelings again will bring your T and you back to a good place!

This may be irrelevant to your situation but I've been noticing my T not being conducive to talking about our relationship lately. I asked her last session if it's because things are good between us now. She said yes, you have a secure connection with me so we don't have to talk about it. I never thought about it like that.