Ok so I have been very confused about sexuality and sexual things since I was 7. I know at 7 I started having sexual relations with a boy age 7 also. I began acting out on my dolls. I liked a girl who was a classmate but she didnt like me because she knew I played sexual games. Fast forward to age 11. I humped my much younger sister. This was my first sexual impulse. I realized at 11 I liked younger girls and older women. When I have impulses to touch people its not just these two types of people. Its everybody even the dog. The sexual thoughts and impulses may be worse with them but not limited to them. When the sexual thought and impulse starts I have this anxiety that rises that I will reach out and touch people inappropriately. The dog, an old lady a kid etc. If I watch shows about sexual abuse like special victims unit and no one around that i am afraid I will touch I have an impulse to touch myself or press my privates to the chair. It is just an anxious impulse I struggle not to act on and havent since I was little. None of this is about sexual gratification. What the hell is wrong with me? I am therapy but have only seen her 7 times. So we are early in. Thanks in advance .