I called my old therapist Wednesday night and asked if I could go back and see her.

She called me back a few hours ago and asked when I wanted to meet. I was confused because I thought I’d have to be on a waiting list or talk to someone in another department. She said that my case was never closed.

I’m really relieved. She didn’t sound all that excited though. I never go back and forth between therapists. This is the first time. And she told me herself one time that if therapy isn’t going the way I like it then to say something instead of waiting 4 years (yes I did do that with one therapist.)

I feel kind of weird that my case was never closed. I know I called her when I was switching. But I feel like maybe I should have done more.

But at least I am able to see her again. We meet next Thursday.