I want some real advice on here…many comments. I need feedback because I’m depressed. I was taken or I should say ripped from my family and home 3 times by CPS when I was a little child (10-12). It wasn’t for a good reason- failure to attend school. I was scared to even go outside of my house to play a lot of the time because I was scared I would be snatched by psychologically abusing CPS workers. CPS workers forced me to lie about abuse, including sexual abuse, just so they could win their case or look better in court. They had me sit for hours repeating their stories until I got them correct. I am a horrible person for lying about sex abuse and I used to think no man would love or trust me if he found out. I just wanted to go home and be loved.
I thought I had gotten over it but lately, the emotional pain and trauma are hitting me all over again (I’m in my late 20s). I’m afraid to have children because I don’t want to lose them and have them have to go through the trauma I did (of being removed). I don’t even want a husband or boyfriend. It is difficult for me to form meaningful relationships. I feel like I’m no good because of this and that I’m not worthy of love. Please guide me, in any advice you can, how to forget about this. I think about this every day and I don’t want those experiences to ruin my life. Please help? Also, please read about my experiences before you call CPS ON ANYONE.