This post may look like a 5 year old's scribble. Meandering, all over the place.

I feel kind of sad. It's true I didn't eat healthy today, and I think I am officially addicted to sugar now, too. And I've been kind of isolated lately. But the relationships part of my post: that guy and I who went out. I think he really likes me. I like him too! He's very nice and sweet. And I'm paranoid that he's bisexual. Not that that would matter. I am kind of analyzing everything in my mind and I'd really like not to. I think I just need to talk here.

I am back on OkCupid (I'd deactivated my profile for a few days). I feel good with the way things are right now. I don't want to commit to him. I want to get to know him better first. And I don't know. I just feel like we are casual dating, and that's fine with me! And fun. But I also feel a disconnect. And a little sad, but maybe thats my own issues and doing. And not related to him.

I don't really have a problem, per se. I think I need to be around people more. My friend called me, and I might call her back to say hello.

In terms of this guy. He calls me "babe" "baby" and "hon" in his texts to me. He did tell me though, that his coworker calls everyone that too, and that it rubbed off on him. So maybe its just him being casual. Or maybe he really likes me. Idk. We haven't had like any kind of talk saying "let's be monogamous and bf / gf." So.

I want to get to know him better though. He is pretty lovely, and impressive, inspiring, and intelligent. he's also kind of got some emotionally immature world views that really rubbed me the wrong way (he thinks its ok / good for some people to have misfortune if they've been mean to someone else, for example, if they're openly racist. they got what they deserved, basically). I guess I just think differently. He also thinks that its ok to take your anger and frustration out on someone else, though, he never did with me, and he also said he lives by the golden rule, and he was quite caring and concerned for me and wanted me to be comfortable and feel safe.

I feel like I'm just rambling tonight. But there you go. Please respond if you have something supportive or helpful. Thank you.