If this is rape then I have been raped several times . Men in my past were always pushy. I always thought if you eventually give in and just let them do it because they are not listening then it wasn't rape . But it seems by reading what everyone else is saying that I am wrong . Maybe that's why I still feel hate and anger towards those people .

There was another time when two brothers told me to come to their house to smoke some weed . I was drunk so I said yes even though I didn't know them. When I got inside I wasn't offered any weed or alcahol . Instead they turned the lights off and pushed me down onto the sofa and tried to have sex with me . I sensed that they lived with their parents because how they were trying to be quiet so I screamed and got out . They got so angry because I think I had gotten them into trouble by screaming which I'm really glad about . They followed me outside and were wanting to beat me up but I stayed where there would be witnesses so they gave up and I went home safe.