I have many days like this! I haven't found out how to not have days like this. I do work on trying not to feel this way, but it seems to always creep back in. I think if I couldn't feel at all, that sometimes it would be so much better, than to feel at all. I have a new T again, who is a trauma specialist, and I hope she will be able to help, but with my ins. I only get to see her once a month, so the rest of that month my mind never stops, good, or bad.