This morning I really felt I'd lost faith in humanity. There are some people in my life, and who I associate with sometimes, especially lately (all at once, it seems) who really bring me down. I can't talk about what it is they've done and how they've treated me though, without feeling badly in this moment. So I will pass on telling the details. But I think I'm worth more. I don't want to associate with anyone anymore who brings me down. I deserve to feel happy, uplifted, and good with my friends.

I kind of want to unfriend someone on Facebook because of this. But I know it would cause drama. For me, and her. So I guess just leave her there and keep her on unfollow. She asks me to look at her page all the time (in person). But she triggers me. And she never likes anything on my page. That may sound petty. I don't care. And I think it's weird of her to ask me to look at her page.

There is another person, who I feel like has treated me poorly, who I will confront. Because I value her friendship and her as a person.

But yeah I think its time to ax some people and just cut some out of my life right now. Even if its not officially "I'm cutting you out of my life."

I don't deserve poor treatment. And I don't want to be around people who are going to bring me down. I need to protect myself. I think, being someone who is kind and humble and insecure... people see that as weak, and possibly able to mess around with me. I definitely fee like I deserve better friendship-wise though. And I don't want to just take whoever is presented to me (aka, who shows interest at first). I feel like I meet a lot of people who are either a.) willing to be friends but are weird / messed up and judge me on my kindness and step all over me, or b.) people who are normal, but who would never be friends with someone without a job. So they are judgmental too. There's GOT to be a middle ground. Even if I have to say syonara to the jerks, and be more alone, and wait for better friends.