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Originally Posted by SarahSweden
Thanks for an interesting post. I can relate to what you describe as I would find it very hard to know how to act in such a situation with farting. I would find it only human in some way but at the same time find it very embarrassing.
Did your T acknowledge that you didn´t look at her for the rest of the session? I mean, she must have noticed that you felt embarrassed even if it was her doing it and perhaps she should have said something about it.
The first T I saw also had a kitchen next to her appointment room. It wasn´t her flat where she lived but a flat she used as her office and she usually kept the door to her kitchen more or less closed. As I had to pass outside the kitchen to get to her appointment room I was very careful about not looking into it even if I had the chance when the door sometimes was a bit more open.
I can understand why your feelings have changed towards your T if the kitchen represented another picture than the one you had "in your head". I mean, you perhaps imagined the kitchen to be very neat and tidy and it wasn´t or something else differed from how you think of your T. Was there something special that made you react, I mean kitchen stuff, decoration or such?
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No my t did not acknowledge I didn’t look at her- she was probably too embarrassed. This is the first time she has passed any kind of wind in session.
I am kinda like you, I see into my ts sitting room in the way to her bathroom but I try not to look in case I see anything that I don’t want to.
I think it was the pictures of her family in her kitchen. It was the pictures of her 5 children and all of their graduations. I felt like such a loser and that t couldn’t possibly be there for me when she has such a big successful family. It really triggered me for a few days afterwards and I considered quitting. I know it doesn’t change anything between us but something in me changed.