I'm betting the psychosis comes back. So I have the horrible negative voice telling me how horrible my eating choices are. Maybe then I will make better choices. I don't want the chatter and confutation but those side effects are better then the weight, lack of personality. It's not like I don't still have paranoia and delusions.

Bipolar nurse I'm sorry I hurt your feelings. Weight is a very touchy subject. I was "okay-ish" until the pants came in. Then it all hit me. My husband told me we'll take care of the weight when I get home. There's a lot more that goes along with weight for me physical problems, sexual problems and of course mental problems.

Instead of dropping the zyprexa completely take just 5mg. I'm on dissoluble and currently cutting 20's into 10's. I can't make it any smaller.

How about talking to your pdoc and getting a different AP onboard first? I don't have a pdoc appointment. My pdoc retired and we never set up an appointment with his replacement. My husband has to do that Tuesday. I have a month worth of meds waiting for me at home. I'm thinking about going back to my old clinic so I can get back on abilify shot. It's just a hassle every month to drive 30 min. away to get the shot in a shady neck of the woods. I should just shut the **** up and take my meds. My other option is to try Saphris and Risperidone.

I'm more level headed today. I'm going to take my medication tonight. I need to lose weight smart. I need a dietitian, and an exercise classes (for a short time).