Hey there

I have read all of your post & wanted to just let you know that I had. I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time & for that matter your ex-partner too.

I'm afraid I don't have any words of wisdom. I can say that the symptoms you describe watching your partner at the time go through are similar to symptoms I have experienced during my own battles with depression.

I guess I just wanted to let you know you are heard here & if posting helps get things out of your head that can only be a good thing.

Take good care of yourself. Gentle hugs if you're OK with them.