Hi this is Desolatex in case anyone wanted and update I was raped in December of 2015 then months of believing this was my fault I finally got help after attempting suicide in March of 2015 it took a long time to get over this trauma but now I’m in a happy relationship and no longer think of what that gross guy did to me and accept I couldnt have done anything to stop him and no longer blane myself. Thank you all for the kind words.