I know that my many attempts were all because I felt trapped in the marriage I couldn't get out if because of the financial situation we ended up in & the H wouldn't file bankruptcy because I kept ending up in the psych hospital & medical hospital.

It was a horrible period that really didn't end until I was finally able to leave after my mom died & I was able to sell her house.

It was like a light switch of that feeling turning off as soon as I left....took me awhile to really put the pieces together to understand that in my case it was everything to do with my inability to have control over my living situation so I felt there was no other way to escape. My aneroxia was for similar reasons. The only thing I could control at that time was what I wouldn't eat & my stress always had created a lack of appetite.

I am so thankful I was never successful in my attempts because my future ended up awesome beyond anything I could have ever imagined. I am definitely proof that suicide would have been a permanent solutikn to a temporary situation though 13 years did NOT feel temporary.

Everyone's situation is so different. One theory doesn't fit all situations