Hi bizi, For the past couple of years my moods have been very unstable. I have ended up in IP and in a day program, both requiring time away from work. I find that I am very guarded, even when things are good. I work with the same people who have seen some erratic behavior from me although no one officially knows what happened. All communications went through human resources, which is not in our building.
I don't think people consider me "friend" material, although, as I said before, I do have one pretty close friend, and a few others who are kind enough. There are times that conversations go on around me and I am completely ignored. It is very frustrating. I continue on as if it does not happen. I don't try to figure out why.