No, I haven't spoke to a doctor about. I think a neurologist would be more appropriate since I believe I need a medical brain scan. I'm very much ashamed about this. I know I'm not schizophrenic. No one told me about it. I don't talk about it to people. I'm a private person. I said that because I know that that's where my damage comes from.

The only person that I have talked to about it was my mom and God. People think you're crazy If you talk to yourself. Like I said, I don't always have control over it nor do I always notice it. Both of my parents, see me talk to myself, and say "Don't do that. People will think you're crazy." I understand that. But I wasn't born with this issue. I was listening to loud music early in the morning everyday when I was in the 11th grade. After a while, I notice that I didn't have complete control over my mind. I told my dad about it and he said "Well, you're just a teenager." And I'm grown now. I'm not sure what my diagnosis and if it's a cure for this. I would hate to live with it for the rest of my life.

P.S. I would NEVER openly discussed this issue with people especially in person. And also to people I know. When people know you, they can talk about to many people and it can effect your reputation. But complete strangers, can not do you any harm, since they don't know you and can't see you.

Any further advice would be appreciated. I'm not sure about going to a doctor right now. But I would love to talk to one online just to see what they can tell me and I can go from there.

Thanks! Blessings!!!