I was abused when i was 13 by my best friends twin brother.
It took me a long time (10 years) to realise what this was and I did report it to the police for my own benefit... not for him to be arrested.

But I am petrified of sexual intercourse and being touched. I HAVE to be drunk and I know that is not right.. I just want a normal relationship. Or he wins.

Anyone else been in this situation? I did have counselling but she didnt quite understand my issue.. im over what happened, i can talk about it fine.. i just want to move on! its all in my head, sex = pain...

I am stuck