I can't get myself to go. I'm not convinced anything is going to change, and plus I've only worked a handful of shifts so far and I'm supposed to leave because other people are maliciously influencing my thoughts and I'm not strong enough to get them out of my head? Last time I did something like that I got fired and being home all the time mooching off my family was NOT good for me. Since I posted this I kept thinking about all the crap experiences I went though in the hospitals, and am I any better now? Apparently not.

I don't know how they're doing it, but it hurts when they put thoughts in my head now. They're doing it directly and there is physical pain in my head, it feels like I'm being electrocuted.