met with t yesterday

he liked the photo of his cat. don't know if I mentioned that cat is deceased now. t said oh Alex...... I sat it down on a dresser. t said he can be the mascot

we had a pretty light session. talked about possible autism spectrum diagnosis. talked about diagnoses in general. t said now that I'm stabilized again I can try to get some positive momentum going

I asked for a hug at the end

e-mailed t a few hours later asking if he thinks a mood stabilizer would be more beneficial for me. I've increased my AD again which I attribute to my mood getting better. but now I'm noticing my thoughts acting up like they do before the voices come back. but I don't want to lower my ad and get depressed again!

t wrote back saying that is a good question. he said the invegas and seroquels can act as mood stabilizers but have a different mode of action. he said a mood stabilizer might help balance things. t said it is a frustrating balance. he wrote that I certainly am trying

it made me feel good to see that t knows that I AM trying my hardest to be ok.

I see my pdoc soon so I'm going to ask her about a mood stabilizer