wow.... so strange to have my emotions toyed with by simply reading words on a screen.
i really wasnt fishing for those nice replies, although i was curious if i'd get any so i came back to read em.

even though you guys barely know me i feel like you know me more than my family or real life friends. i opened myself up completely in these forums, and that made me feel vulnerable.
guess it is the nature of my condition..... i think i will stick around, but ill probably slam the door again and again.
thank you so much for understanding.