I'm sorry you are struggling with this. There is nothing I can offer personally on this subject. But I noticed no one had replied to your post. So I thought I would. Here's a link to an article, from PsychCentral's archives, on the subject of compulsive masturbation. Perhaps it can provide some useful information with regard to what you're dealing with:

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/sex/2...xual-disorder/

My best wishes to you...