Because of all the crap I am dealing with at work. Depression is coming back hard. Now I want to divorce my wife and leave my kids. I want to leave my job. Basically destroy the good life I have made for myself. T won’t answer any emails. She said she wants to discuss this in session. Work is so bad that things out of my control like my computer blue screening and needing a new one I get blamed for. It has just gotten past the ridiculous.

I don’t know how to stop self sabotaging.