It is really hard to go so long without a DX. It is frustrating, painful and just out right maddening.

My niece is on some meds that help her alot. There are some new ones on the market. You may want to talk to your doctor about them. Maybe they don't have the side effects that some of the older ones do.

Whatever it takes to work through your grief is what you can use. I believe that grieving is pretty much a "gut" thing. You have to work through it in your heart, your soul and your head. Then there is the physical part where you no longer have your partner across the table from you, lying by you in the bed or driving with you somewhere.

It is very difficult for me to imagine my house without my parents still there. I haven't been back there in a long time, it just seems like it isn't home now.

I was browsing through and saw your post the other night and thought that I might be able to help you. You are more than welcome to vent to me all that you need. I'm here.

xoxox pat