I'm 37 years old.I have noticed the older i get.The harder it is for me to find true friends.I spend a lot of time on my own and at times hate it.I use to though.Hang out with people.I really did not like much.But then i thought i should stop being around folks i don't like.I hung out with folks i did not like for years.Because i would get bored and lonely.The main reason i did not like them folks.Was the friendship was one sided.I'd give and give.I'd listen and never been listend to.Plus some would gossip.Then when the person they gossiped about.Was around.They'd act like that person was their best friend. I even told someone who talked behind everyone's back to me. That i have a feeling she talks behind my back to.So i learned not to trust her.If i can't trust a person.I don't want to be their friend.Anyone else have this problem? I wish i was better at reading people. Ok a times i'd get bad vibes around some people.At times i should have belived that vibe.Because in the end.Most of those who i got bad vibes from. Ended up being jerks when i got to know them.I just don't want to be judgemental.So that's why at times i think getting bad vibes is bad.BUT My counselor says.When i get a bad vibe.Around a person i am not judging.But my intuition is telling me to be careful. Lately i have paid more attention to my intuition. I wish i would have done that sooner.Than i might have been hurt less.
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